My soul yearns for my own portion of snow, and bare branches embracing white, and I miss the happy chirps of birds feeding on fresh snowy garden floors, and crystalline air and fluffy clomps drifting down form a moonlight sky and it seems only yesterday that I were out shivering as I watched the first snow fall in the quiet garden.
Isn't it interesting how we see life sometimes... or most of the times? I mean when we lived up north in the house in the roses, winter was not my favorite time of year. Sunless wintery days made me feel terribly blue, and I complained about most everything from having to get up early in those dark winter days to have to drive on wintery slippery roads. And now that I don't have that, I dream of snow and cozy snowy days... Life certainly looks better, and prettier, and healthier, and more peaceful and more romantic when seen from afar. Does it not? But once you get to live the things you dream of, they're not the same any more.... they are not exactly how you had pictured them or imagined them to be.
I don't feel totally rooted here, and I miss my home in the roses terribly and yearn for everything that was, and is, so very dear to me with every bit of myself. And there are so many things about life I fear... so many scary thoughts I don't even dare mention, or express... I tent to dwell on the negative sometimes. Today, on talking with someone very dear to me about some of these things, he said to me: "If you pay too much attention to the darkness, how could you possibly find the light?" Such wisdom coming from such young soul.... ah yes, I should train myself to focus on thoughts that will move me forward in the right direction.
I shall uncover happiness in my own magical forest... let my spirit limitless be; fly in the freedom of the birds and the staccato taps of rain.... I shall I shall be free.
Too much thinking and analyzing just makes any problem worse. I know this for a fact. Today as any other day is a wonderful day; a new blessing, a new beginning – we shall life in the present. And be thankful for it.
Happy New Year my friend~